I know, this is... something I've been worried about since I was freed. None of us were willing hosts. I don't know if I believe that Cinque and Doppel are the same.
because then you can't do anything for the people who still are
[ He was elsewhere, not really headed anywhere important, but now he's making a beeline for her room. Not that she'll know - he's foregone the hoodie today in favor of being able to phase neatly into rooms without any fuss. ]
[ The texts slow down again, showing up at regular intervals, regular typing speed. ]
it doesn't matter who wins. what matters is who survives.
the mafia's already pretty much lost by now.
if we decided to kill the doppel for good, i'd vote for cinque
if we needed to make sure the people who survived were all people who could save everyone else... probably myself, because i can't fight or anything like that
voting from the current group...
phil or anthy
probably phil, though
[ As much as the thought leaves a disgusting feeling in his heart. ]
[she pauses for a long time, surprised he gave an honest assessment. That there could be an honest assessment here. And she bites her lips, rather than reply verbally. She slowly types out,]
It makes sense logically. But I can't look at this so coolly. All I can see is sacrificing the few for what I'm not certain is the greater good. People who are harmless, or haven't harmed anyone...
For someone like me. I can't do it-- I can't decide to place my life ahead of theirs.
... I will do whatever I can to protect Akira. But you shouldn't put all your hope onto him for this either. He can't do this alone, and he isn't the leader here.
... Besides. I only said I would vote for myself. Not that I would try to be killed.
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i wish i knew cinque better before any of this happened
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i really don't know what to do anymore
i mean rean probably had to die anyway? he wouldn't have lasted
it would have been best to execute him no matter what
but...
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i know akira wanted to save him, but... i can't really imagine there was a way to just heal that?
not here, anyway
tomorrow's going to be awful
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I'm not voting for anyone but myself tomorrow.
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why?
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because then you can't do anything for the people who still are
[ He was elsewhere, not really headed anywhere important, but now he's making a beeline for her room. Not that she'll know - he's foregone the hoodie today in favor of being able to phase neatly into rooms without any fuss. ]
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[the obvious counter question to that entire point.]
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He knows who he would vote for. But... ]
you aren't me
you're someone much more important than that, makoto
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because i'm useless garbage. i'd drag the group down.
but that means i'd be voting for myself. not for you, makoto.
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because we aren't the same person
because you're someone who's still there to hold up others
you can't do that anymore when you're dead
you can't be there for people the same way when you're a ghost
no matter how much you scream or yell no one can hear you
you can't even fight back when people are in danger
you can't do anything anymore
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it doesn't matter who wins. what matters is who survives.
the mafia's already pretty much lost by now.
if we decided to kill the doppel for good, i'd vote for cinque
if we needed to make sure the people who survived were all people who could save everyone else... probably myself, because i can't fight or anything like that
voting from the current group...
phil or anthy
probably phil, though
[ As much as the thought leaves a disgusting feeling in his heart. ]
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It makes sense logically. But I can't look at this so coolly. All I can see is sacrificing the few for what I'm not certain is the greater good. People who are harmless, or haven't harmed anyone...
For someone like me. I can't do it-- I can't decide to place my life ahead of theirs.
I won't. I'm not so important I can't be killed.
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you and akira are smart and know how to work together
i don't want anyone else to die
but they're going to keep making us kill each other
what are we going to do if the survivors can't save us...?
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I'm not special, I'm not the only one that can do what needs to be done.
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then you're going to abandon akira and leave it up to him?
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... Besides. I only said I would vote for myself. Not that I would try to be killed.
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he wouldn't even look at his tablet
he hugged me for a really long time, though
he'll probably try to sacrifice himself during the trial
please don't let him
please stay with him
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I won't let him sacrifice himself, ever. But I can't bring myself to do this anymore, either.
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cw: suicidal ideation