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[justfists]

Mmhm.

I'm not voting for anyone but myself tomorrow.

[resortghosts]

[ A pause. ]

why?

[justfists]

Because. I don’t want to play this game anymore.

[resortghosts]

it's even worse when you don't get to play

because then you can't do anything for the people who still are

[ He was elsewhere, not really headed anywhere important, but now he's making a beeline for her room. Not that she'll know - he's foregone the hoodie today in favor of being able to phase neatly into rooms without any fuss. ]

[justfists]

Who would you vote for?

[the obvious counter question to that entire point.]

[resortghosts]

[ ...

He knows who he would vote for. But... ]

you aren't me

you're someone much more important than that, makoto

[justfists]

Who would you vote for?

[resortghosts]

if i were alive, that would be me

because i'm useless garbage. i'd drag the group down.

but that means i'd be voting for myself. not for you, makoto.

[justfists]

No matter how you rationalize it, we both have the same idea. Why should I not vote for myself? Why should I vote for anyone else?

[resortghosts]

[ The next set of texts come rapidly, one after another. ]

because we aren't the same person

because you're someone who's still there to hold up others

you can't do that anymore when you're dead

you can't be there for people the same way when you're a ghost

no matter how much you scream or yell no one can hear you

you can't even fight back when people are in danger

you can't do anything anymore

[justfists]

Who should I vote for, Yoshi?

[resortghosts]

[ The texts slow down again, showing up at regular intervals, regular typing speed. ]

it doesn't matter who wins. what matters is who survives.

the mafia's already pretty much lost by now.

if we decided to kill the doppel for good, i'd vote for cinque

if we needed to make sure the people who survived were all people who could save everyone else... probably myself, because i can't fight or anything like that

voting from the current group...

phil or anthy

probably phil, though

[ As much as the thought leaves a disgusting feeling in his heart. ]

[justfists]

[she pauses for a long time, surprised he gave an honest assessment. That there could be an honest assessment here. And she bites her lips, rather than reply verbally. She slowly types out,]

It makes sense logically. But I can't look at this so coolly. All I can see is sacrificing the few for what I'm not certain is the greater good. People who are harmless, or haven't harmed anyone...

For someone like me. I can't do it-- I can't decide to place my life ahead of theirs.

I won't. I'm not so important I can't be killed.

[resortghosts]

you ARE important though

you and akira are smart and know how to work together

i don't want anyone else to die

but they're going to keep making us kill each other

what are we going to do if the survivors can't save us...?

[justfists]

I'm NOT though.

I'm not special, I'm not the only one that can do what needs to be done.

[resortghosts]

[ There's a pause. ]

then you're going to abandon akira and leave it up to him?

[justfists]

... I will do whatever I can to protect Akira. But you shouldn't put all your hope onto him for this either. He can't do this alone, and he isn't the leader here.

... Besides. I only said I would vote for myself. Not that I would try to be killed.

[resortghosts]

when i visited earlier, he wouldn't say anything...

he wouldn't even look at his tablet

he hugged me for a really long time, though

he'll probably try to sacrifice himself during the trial

please don't let him

please stay with him

[justfists]

Do you think I don't know, Yoshi...? I've cried so often with him, I'm out of tears. I could only hold him this morning.

I won't let him sacrifice himself, ever. But I can't bring myself to do this anymore, either.

[resortghosts]

then he'll be alone

[justfists]

... Yoshi, please.

Please stop.

[resortghosts]

[ The texts come in rapid fire again. ]

i can't

i don't want to see you here

makoto when you die you can't do anything even if you want to

even if you want to save your friends you can't

even if your friends are going to die you can't do anything!

what if you get executed and akira lives?

all you'll be able to do is watch

it hurts

it hurts so much!

if you can still do something... why would you give that up?

if you still have friends you care about, who care about you... why would you give that up?

i didn't understand any of that when i died

but you do, don't you?

[ There's a soft patter in the room. Tears hitting the floor. ]

[justfists]

[thanks, she hates all this. she thought she'd actually reached her limit of crying, that she felt numb inside, and that she couldn't be moved to tears, but. there's no way to understand.

she just... wants to stop. She wants all of this to end, without anymore bloodshed. But most of all, she doesn't want to pretend she's got some greater claim to life because of some resourcefulness, not after everything she's done.

not after she no longer feels in control of herself, or like she even really is herself.

she just sets down the tablet, and raises her hands to hide her face, closing her eyes tightly.

her shoulders shake. and her voice is thick when she finally speaks again.]

Please stop!

[resortghosts]

don't make the same mistake i did

please

[ A weight falls on the edge of her bed. It's probably just about right for an invisible tablet. ]

[justfists]

[she's discovered a magical thing.

that you literally can't see it if you're sobbing so hard you can't read. She can't answer, because she's now pulling her knees into her chest, and burying her head into them, so she can't be seen either.

makoto niijima is not available right now.]