[she has to contemplate for a minute what to say next. Knowing and emotions are two different things, and she's been fighting her way through them, just like he has the whole time.]
[It's always easier to say these things to others than believe in it yourself. Their positions are reversed now, but that doesn't make that part any less true. So he nods along at her reasoning.]
As long as that was the only reason... [He sighs a bit in frustration, although it's not so much directed at her as it is to himself.] Sorry for making this out to be like some kind of interrogation, by the way. That wasn't my intention. I just... wanted to make sure you weren't using this as a way to punish yourself, or something.
That's good to hear... even if I'm not entirely sure what standard you're comparing this to.
[Considering the topic, it was bound to be somewhat intrusive anyways, and probably even moreso when they didn't know each other all too well. And as such, he's reluctant to press even though he feels like they ended up sidestepping the point a little.]
[even though she knows it's not believable. she looks at him, her face clearly neutral, yet pleasant. she's had a lot of practice with this.]
Honestly, now that it's over. That this is... well, almost over. It has to be. We should never have counted on the Outsider for anything-- I'm... honestly surprised the Barghest considered him a prized host.
[an awkward pause, and then she searches for a conversation saver]
[This game's made a liar of all of them, considering how often people go around insisting they're fine. It's more believable for some over others, where Makoto falls somewhere in the middle even if mostly because of context.]
I think he really was trying in his own way, but... it definitely could've ended better. [Which is really the understatement of the year, but.]
I'm fine, thanks. Everything's pretty much the same as being alive and I've felt healthier than I have in weeks, so I'd say it's kind of an improvement, actually. [He smiles back easily enough, but one day isn't enough to seal up all the cracks; he's never been a good liar, and it probably looks more rehearsed than anything else.]
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Everyone knows you weren't responsible for those deaths, Makoto. In the end, I think what mattered most was conviction.
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You're right. I know you're right.
[she has to contemplate for a minute what to say next. Knowing and emotions are two different things, and she's been fighting her way through them, just like he has the whole time.]
I guess I was just irrationally worried.
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As long as that was the only reason... [He sighs a bit in frustration, although it's not so much directed at her as it is to himself.] Sorry for making this out to be like some kind of interrogation, by the way. That wasn't my intention. I just... wanted to make sure you weren't using this as a way to punish yourself, or something.
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[it's a nice shift in the conversation.
Unfortunately... the "more" intrusive conversations were... worse.]
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[Considering the topic, it was bound to be somewhat intrusive anyways, and probably even moreso when they didn't know each other all too well. And as such, he's reluctant to press even though he feels like they ended up sidestepping the point a little.]
Anyways, how are you feeling after... all that?
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[even though she knows it's not believable. she looks at him, her face clearly neutral, yet pleasant. she's had a lot of practice with this.]
Honestly, now that it's over. That this is... well, almost over. It has to be. We should never have counted on the Outsider for anything-- I'm... honestly surprised the Barghest considered him a prized host.
[an awkward pause, and then she searches for a conversation saver]
What about you?
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I think he really was trying in his own way, but... it definitely could've ended better. [Which is really the understatement of the year, but.]
I'm fine, thanks. Everything's pretty much the same as being alive and I've felt healthier than I have in weeks, so I'd say it's kind of an improvement, actually. [He smiles back easily enough, but one day isn't enough to seal up all the cracks; he's never been a good liar, and it probably looks more rehearsed than anything else.]
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I felt awful and it was still an improvement.
[see, they can talk about other things! Like! Not being possessed! an experience they share.]
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I can imagine. I'd heard your condition had been pretty bad right after the exorcism.