[She communicates it well enough - in her tone of voice, her body language. He's good at reading others, sometimes - and he doesn't need a book to know what she wants in this moment.]
He's trying to set up something to convince the foundation that we shouldn't be treated as disposable. But it's going to take time - he told me it's going ahead, but they've got to be careful. If they catch wind of this....there's only so much he can do, and he can't directly interfere with the world.
So...for your second question, I don't know. It's going to at least take more time.
[she doesn't sound satisfied with that. And she looks it. She's just... so very terrified that her memory is going to be erased again, and that this time, she won't have the benefit of whatever the Resort is doing to weaken the effect of the drugs.]
How can he even rely on us, then? How can we even trust ourselves?
[At saying that, Ichigo grabs her hand - firmly, tightly. If he could, he'd have her look into his eyes - but she can't see him, so this is the only thing he can do.]
You're talking about your memories, right? I - noticed that this has really hit you hard.
...Back home...there was a time where everyone I knew was targeted by someone. He'd used his power to make it so that they all remembered something different than I did - and I was so scared. I felt lost, like I had no one to turn to, because they all thought the enemy was someone they'd known for years.
Someone else close to me reminded me that the bonds I'd lost could just be remade. That as long as I had the determination to keep going - the courage to reach out - that I'd never lose them.
If you lose your memories, then just trust in the people around you. If you can't do that, then just keep fighting - because as long as you're alive, as long as you're here in this world, you're doing what they don't expect you to do.
Survive.
That's how you trust yourself. By never giving up to them, or your own fear.
[It's how he's been able to trust himself after all this time alone, fearing he'd lose the memories of all the people he loved.
Losing memories was inevitable. Giving in wasn't.]
[she squeezes his hand, grateful for that speech, even if she was still nervous, or uncertain.
And then she leans against him.]
Ichigo... they killed Akira. They sacrificed him to one of the SCPs. When they decided to do it, they didn't hesitate to choose him, when either of us would have done. SCP-106... it just likes young prey, after all...
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I feel ready to snap in half. Why am I here? How can any of us even think of working for this fucking--...
[she bites off the word, but her hand tenses under his.]
I hate them so much. I just want to destroy them, let something new take its place.
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We work for them because we have no other choice. Well, no. There is a choice - but that means dying here and letting your soul go back to your world.
[He pauses, and then-]
But destruction might not be the answer here. Changing it is - and we have allies to help us there.
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[she's resistant to changing it. she doesn't trust that process, not now]
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Again? You mean, before you came here?
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Yes, that's exactly what I mean.
What's to say that doesn't happen to all of us? What happens then?
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[...It's risky, telling her this, and yet -
He thinks he can trust her.]
A plan that's larger than just us. One that will be able to change the entire Foundation, if it succeeds.
You remember Ripley talking about the person she spoke to, right?
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I do.
[she wishes she could look at him, to communicate 'start talking.' But she can't, and so she focuses on the tablet.]
How is that going to work? And how many others are going to have to suffer in the meantime?
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He's trying to set up something to convince the foundation that we shouldn't be treated as disposable. But it's going to take time - he told me it's going ahead, but they've got to be careful. If they catch wind of this....there's only so much he can do, and he can't directly interfere with the world.
So...for your second question, I don't know. It's going to at least take more time.
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[she doesn't sound satisfied with that. And she looks it. She's just... so very terrified that her memory is going to be erased again, and that this time, she won't have the benefit of whatever the Resort is doing to weaken the effect of the drugs.]
How can he even rely on us, then? How can we even trust ourselves?
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You're talking about your memories, right? I - noticed that this has really hit you hard.
...Back home...there was a time where everyone I knew was targeted by someone. He'd used his power to make it so that they all remembered something different than I did - and I was so scared. I felt lost, like I had no one to turn to, because they all thought the enemy was someone they'd known for years.
Someone else close to me reminded me that the bonds I'd lost could just be remade. That as long as I had the determination to keep going - the courage to reach out - that I'd never lose them.
If you lose your memories, then just trust in the people around you. If you can't do that, then just keep fighting - because as long as you're alive, as long as you're here in this world, you're doing what they don't expect you to do.
Survive.
That's how you trust yourself. By never giving up to them, or your own fear.
[It's how he's been able to trust himself after all this time alone, fearing he'd lose the memories of all the people he loved.
Losing memories was inevitable. Giving in wasn't.]
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And then she leans against him.]
Ichigo... they killed Akira. They sacrificed him to one of the SCPs. When they decided to do it, they didn't hesitate to choose him, when either of us would have done. SCP-106... it just likes young prey, after all...
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[He's read what he's allowed to about the SCP's, after all.]
Both of you didn't deserve that. That's - horrible.
[He wraps her up into a hug, his arms firm around her.]
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... I just... completely forgot he existed. There were so many other Akira's.
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But - It's not your fault, Makoto. Forgetting him, I mean.